let's take that road before us and sing a chorus or two

elf is on! oh joy of all joys! i love christmas movies!

i am so tired it is unbelievable. its snowing outside and i have a 9am appointment at the service center for a tire check and an oil change. then radio then ebay.

thanksgiving was so incredible and so delicious! everything got made and everything was so yummy!









friday we went rollerskating, which everyone loved, and then we came home and started the giant fire and sat around playing the famous people name game and drinking hot buttered rum.









saturday kait and kara left in the morning and sterph and i voyaged to troy to look at antiques and eat sammys. then we went to the mall, which was my idea but i'm not sure why. then we went to see a movie at the madison.

stephanie left this afternoon and now i am here and my brain is mush. i wanted to take a shower but i don't even have the energy for that.
christmas trees are on the tops of cars and twinkling through windows more and more. i wonder if i should get my very own! my december is still a question mark as is every month that follows. when will it change? one day i'm sure...

til next time,
b

i'm gonna go where the lights are bright

howdy!
thanksgiving rapidly approaches and tonight i made my first batch of butter for hot buttered rum. life is moving along for me somewhat like a lawnmower driven by an elderly person.

still working on the epic blog/essay which will come soon....

in other news:
-tomorrow i will be on the radio for the second time. i am going to do much better this week!
-they told me i could program an hour of my own music if i wanted (to be aired one time). only problem is, i have so much music and its sort of all over the place. i want to have a small string to connect everything and make it easier for talking points. here are the themes floating in me head:
traditional country/bluegrass/folk
train songs (i love train songs)
songs about traveling by car/road trips/moving in car
bubblegum pop
current favorites
alltime favorites (this will be nearly impossible)
highschool throwbacks
misogyny mix (something i am working on for kaitlin that involves extremely sexist songs from the 50's and 60's, and i suspect this is a bit too bold for my first go)
california dreaming (late 60's - early 70's california folk-rock)
seasonal selection (this would be based on whatever season the show would air, nothing too hokey or obvious)

okay end themes. what else? i am trying to be an inspiring dresser these days and its going just okay. i'm still on a separates search and i don't really have a nice pair of jeans at the moment. everything is a bit mom, and not in a good way - promise you that. i've been trying to get to the shoe repair place for a week now AND i'm overdue for an oil change in my car PLUS i need snow tires! errands are annoying and difficult to complete no matter where you live or what they entail.

pictures to finish things off and make things look more well rounded (the theme here is houston, texas):







til next time...

no direction on that same old wind could give me passage through

dylan found erica!
she was being held in mexico on the beach in some lavish house with her mom and step dad.
valerie totally came through in the clutch and they not only got erica but they recaptured dylan's money too!
this episode is one of my favorites because it starts with dylan and brandon in a sweat lodge in the california desert. christ i would watch that for two hours straight. kelly is well on her way to being in a cult and the peach pit after dark is up and swinging! auhndrea and jesse are seeming doing well, probably because she finally told the laundromat dude that she was married and he quit bartending. donna and ray are hot and heavy still. when will he hit her? time is ticking!


new ep of top chef tonight, tomorrow equals raking leaves and tday shopping for non-perishables. wee cooking! tonight i made some roasted sweeties but i added mini purple potatoes and heavily seasoned the whole lot. i ate the whole thing!

bonfire pile is looking good. every day i move a little further down the beach in either direction and look for GIANT logs. its pretty funny. i hope no one is watching me. i keep feeling like people are watching me! i stopped parking my car in the garage because i dont like walking across the lawn in the dark alone. should i buy mace?

i'm working on an epic blog now. maybe you'll see it tomorrow. i'm also working on a "best of 2008" albums list. this is especially tricky considering i own one album released this year. help? please?
love yas!

only in the echoes of my mind

a few snaps from today when the light was like a message from heaven:













today was slow moving and strange. last night someone from the nearby job corps (i guess this is like a place where people on their last leg go to learn a trade so they can live a "normal" life) who i guess decided to leave the program somehow found my house and was banging on my door asking to come in and actually trying to open my door. it was probably the most scared i have ever been in my life. i was paralyzed with fear! my knees were actually knocking, no joke. anyways, i called 911, and the person eventually went away. the cops came and canvased the area. job corps said the awol person was a 20 year old white male wearing a red t-shirt who was drunk. yuck! i didn't see him and i equate this to the time we had a rat in our apartment but i never acutally SAW it, but knew it was there because we could hear it every night. had i seen this person i think i would have DIED from fear. i didn't think i would be so scared! the part that makes it maybe more scary is that my dad told me about these people from job corps and made it into this scary thing, and then it actually happened! ugh! i keep hearing his scary panicked loud mean voice saying "let me in, open the door, if you open the door you'll see i'm only a kid!" oh christ.

anyways, i had a hard time falling asleep. the mean voice kept playing in my head. just knowing he could be right on the other side of a thin door. i slept until maybe noon, my dad was already here putting blinds in every window. i hope this doesn't stick. i am going to try my best not to be scared. living in fear is horrible. i tried out a new outfit and took it for a spin at the grocery store where thanksgiving is in full swing! managed to spend 90 dollars (life is expensive!), came back and took a few snaps of the glory light, made myself a dinner. made myself a snack. another snack. snack. more snacks. tea. water. i just keep feeling like people are watching me! and not in the funny-brooklyn-nosey-peeper sort of way, this is more like a scary-woods dweller-i could kill you-watch out type of thing.

okay enough of this. i'm fine. i'll be fine.
tomorrow is a new (and cold!) day.
love love,
BB

here is the news

hooray!
about a week ago i started volunteering at a local radio station here in albany.
i basically just emailed them and said i was interested in helping out.
flash forward to today - november 15th at 5pm - when i will be making my radio debut!
saturdays from 5-7 is my spot. its mostly just me announcing the songs, but you can stream live online: Exit 97.7
and please do!
so this is the secret i've been keeping from the internet, and i feel like i can spill the beans now since i know its happening. the "job" is fun and i get to talk about music and file cds and shit. i'm into it and this is definitely the sort of thing albany is good for. i'm glad there are some of these things, because i attempted going out again last night and albany is NOT good for that. i haven't adjusted to seeing people from high school and telling them that i live here. its a big pride-swallowing issue. i need to just get-over-it.

thanksgivingggggggg is approaching! my menu is still not finalized but i have a bit of time for that. theres a bit more pressure because now i have three birds coming up to visit, but that adds some entertainment and some SPIRIT that would be absent otherwise. sterph shares my passion for a good tday and wants to make something called "corn thing" count me in! i'm stuffing tricks up my sleeve now to pull out at random during their stay. adventure ensues! stay tuned!

pictures? how about a video!




oh you want a youtube clip? fine fine, sure sure, heres a petite gem:



kuss kuss!

"may the bridges i burn light the way"

howdy!
the subject is a direct quote from mr mckay. he told brandon to get out and leave his gun, but brandon just will not comply! leave it to the do-gooder to do the right thing every time!

today i went for a two piece ensemble, pairing two of my favorite wardrobe pieces for the first time. then i stood on top of the toilet to capture my creation. the brogues caused a bit of shoe pain and were very noisy on the floors at work but i think it was worth it because i received a compliment from a 6 year old. this one will be worn again. its a keeper.




top chef starts tonight. i have tomorrow off from work but i've filled it with so many things from visiting my high school to check on my 10th grade bio average, to a bit of buns of steel and even some vacuuming! friday is so full and secretive. saturday and sunday will hopefully consist of me visiting a few church sales and even maybe an estate sale in menands. lately i am looking for a coffee table, pyrex cookware, and separates to fill in the holes in my wardrobe. and of course i am always looking for knick-knacks. bric-a-brack. house clutter, ya hear?

apparently i am a blog machine lately and i wish i had some partners in crime. everyone is so slow! c'mon people, what are you doing out there? living your real life? pfffft! overrated!

love to the moon!
B

rolling down to the sea

okay 902 updatezzzzzzz!

dylan and valerie are hot and heavy but they aren't going to get serious, meanwhile, valerie is playing steve so hard and kelly is on to the whole thing but no one believes her! i find it hard to figure kelly out, because on one hand, i think she's a bimbo, but on the other hand, her first instincts about people are usually right. ooooooooooooh i almost forgot the best part about today, the smokey-voiced ray pruit (one t because its all his mama could afford) made his debut! kelly thinks he could be a mass-murderer, but he just took donna on a secret date to his family pumpkin farm! yippee! griffin is going to be very upset when he finds out catholic donna is playing him for a sucker. david and claire are making out (who knows), and brandon is still do-gooding left and right, only now he is student body prez of cal u, today he is taking on a southeast asian dictator! oh! auhn-drea caught jessie flirting with cougars at his bar! this is really scandalous and she thinks they are in trouble, but he thinks everything is gravy. i can't wait to update you on the status of the med student she met at the laundromat. STAY TUNED!



pining for the delta:

reminds me that i long to be...

they keep singin to me

902100000000000000, god! i wish i could explain to you how much this show completes my life. to be able to watch the damn thing, almost from front to back. the possibilities! so i'm right at the part where brenda decides she isn't coming back from london, and VALERIE comes to town. dylan is drinking again and kelly and brandon (aka blondie and the boyscout) are an item. friday used to be my favorite day of the week but now its moved down on the list because it means i have to wait TWO DAYS before more 902. ah! i don't know a sound (or sight) more satisfying than a haggard mckay smashing a bottle of alcohol. ahndrea's tiny baby is out of the hospital and its just a countdown until her latino husband cheats on her. goodie! david is in his heavily gelled phase and is STILL listening to babyface even though he kicked him off his tour! and no one is even twenty-one yet!!!

phew!

so! now! here are some pictures. we all know i like pictures, right? i really like them.
the theme of these photos below will be summer light. this is a theme worth revisiting when i upload texas and new mexico.
without further ado, summer light:



















okay my dears, adios!
tomorrow: waltz lessons! (wha?)

i washed my face in the morning dew, bathed my soul in the sun

i already regret not buying a paper today. what a day!
i will add to the many many joyful words that have already been written today by just saying congratulations to everyone. isn't there just something about his face? we finally got our golden boy, let's hope our hunches are true.


the main focus of this entry, is actually going to be about travel. TRAVEL! listen, i need these small glimmers to move towards. you can understand, i'm sure. hope! we know all about hope! so anyways, travel. kaitlin is potentially going to paris come january, and paris sounds so right to me right now. christmas, new years, where should i be? i would love to see the everglades in december, and camp next to that teal ocean without the 100% humidity and bugs the size of dust. florida is like a flu shot. i want to sleep in the trees in georgia. i want to eat a snoball in the bywater! more pictures! more life! more movement! all those highways laid out so clear. the feelings are infectious!
let's get inspired:












and then there's always this kind of inspiration:









a time filled with hope! this is better than most alternatives. a time filled with sunshine and hope is probably the only thing better. summer 2009: its coming. into the great wide open part two.

week plans:
ebay
waltz lessons!
something that involves the radio that i will talk about later
working at the co-op?
rollerskating?
actually cleaning my house?

stay tuned for the answers to these burning questions and more!

all the young dudes

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