the sun will always shine where you stand

here's something i don't understand:
its illegal to euthanize a person, even though they can communicate in a language we understand that they may want to end their life, but is completely legal and widely practiced to euthanize an animal who cannot communicate in the formal sense with humans.

i'm not really sure which side of this i think is worse. i'm pretty gutted my cat was put to sleep today, and, if it was really necessary that this happen, that i wasn't there to see him out of life. he is now buried in the garden in a cardboard coffin. we planted two yellow lily plants on top of him. i keep thinking about him all dead and curled up inside a weird box and its making me so sick. what a good dude. bless his little still heart.