people look among you, thats where your hope must lie

i should win some sort of prize for feeling like a giant hole filled with the space between oxygen molecules but still looking so fat.

wallowwwwwwwwwwwwwww. i can truthfully do whatever i want. if i want to lay on the hard floor and cry in this empty house i can do it. i will do it. never in my entire life, i can assure you, have i ever felt so alone. never have i realized no one really cares. saying you care is not caring. maybe if there is care there is no understanding, and vice versa. the world is full of flakes and i am probably one of them. and money goddamn you money because i want to get into my car and drive away, i want to do it right now. i want to drive to the edge and sleep on it. i hate the rain and i want to lay down in the rain.

i just don't know what to do.