and then there's this

in case you've forgotten about my dream life:

wash away my sorrow, wash away my shame

boy would i have loved to have put a real live early 70's performance of this song here instead of that karaoke stuff up there, but y'all get the point, no?

hello!!! man, i'm really weirdly bad at the internet these days. i'm weirdly bad at a lot of stuff these days, actually, but today i am magically feeling quite chipper and even my awful professor in clinic couldn't defeat my mood. i need to start working on an outfit for my night out tonight (they are few and far between nowadays) and hope this positive energy sticks around at least through the weekend so i can enjoy my friends whom i miss immensely.

not much else to report on, sadly. but i am working on getting some film developed, which will lead to things to show and stories to tell (god knows i have about a trillion of these) also i think expect more karaoke videos (i'm sure you're thrilled) because stephanie and i are about due for another round of this. maybe expect some pictures from my weekend and some pictures of all the nice foods i plan on eating in the near future. also expect love and joy and hugs and sparkles coming out of my eyes.

lovelove,
bb

pumped a lot of pain

j/k its 'tane.
enjoy!

for every voice you ever heard there's been a thousand without a word

so much fleetwood happening for me lately. something about it suits my melancholy yet hopeful mood. two of my current favorites:







i'd take a buckingham in 1982 anyday....

xx kiddies, xx

if not for you my sky would fall

because i can:


















oh brenda, how i long to channel your brief tv existence at most moments of most days. your sweet mouth, the just-so bangs, icy eyes, porcelain complexion, oh brenda! one day we will be united. one day we will live as one!

its easy, you only need to know

still up here, and my meltdown about returning is mounting. really focusing on one day at a time. working on being present in each moment of each day (this is hard!). took care of lots of odds and ends, including calling the court regarding my first speeding ticket (!!! - this was bound to happen sometime, i suppose, but i still cried for five minutes while pulling away from the scene of the crime) spent a few days with denise and chiara and a new friend isa. swam and saw waterfalls and ate mexican and sang around a campfire. i suppose at some point i must have really let loose because denise started kissing me on the head and saying "you are making me so happy right now" wouldn't it be lovely if my whole life could just be like that? currently talking to jenny about how some higher power should review every major life decision i choose to make, because.....not sure how i ended up here now, twenty-seven years old, sitting in my pajamas at almost three thirty in the afternoon in my dad's basement, but...i'm certainly here. so.....

anyways this post was supposed to be about singing around the campfire but somehow it turned into something else. could i also ask that all you asian robots please stop commenting on this blog? holy annoying!

be young be free
bb

some people say the sky is just the sky

hello from the green lands up north!

just a quick one to begin august:

the days start slow and then sink into the ground in a way that reminds me of watering a thirsty house plant (ending with that gurgling noise- more more more). i know summer will soon be over and its always bittersweet. this summer has felt endless and i can't say i care but i also do not relate when people say "how is it august already?!?" its a painstaking affair for me to fill my days with trivial and non-trivial activities. i can say i've been reconnecting and connecting with people who i see being positive forces. i smell like campfire often and feel sentimental even more than that. i'm finding it hard to put words to this right now. and by this i mean whatever ache or longing or song is inside of me. i guess i'm just waiting for life to kiss me on the forehead.


(somehow i managed to lose the battery charger for my digital camera. i don't know what this means for us. when it turns up i guess you'll know...)