e'eryday seems a little closer

i feel like i should write something here now. whoops i just have nothing to say.
i can tell you that it is BALLS TO THE WALL FREEZING out and my roommate and i decided not to turn on the heat until absolutely necessary. i think neither of us wants to be the first one to cave. this means i am WEARING GLOVES IN THE HOUSE. whateverrrrrrrrrrrr.

i ordered twenty dollars of thai food and ate the whole thing BUT i don't feel completely awful over it because i packed sweatin to the oldies vhs in my suitcase for vacation. whateverrrrrrrrrrr

i'm working on a mix called "nice. and. easy" if i don't lose my mind before i finish i will listen to this mix when i feel like i am LOSING MY FUCKING MIND. whateverrrrrrr

i found out today, the day i came closest to getting in an actual car accident, that my brakes really aren't that great. really looking forward to testing them out tomorrow in the SNOW on the THRUWAY. whateverrrrrrrrrr.

i'm packing only sweater dresses for my entire ten days upstate. i plan to go to all the thrift stores and buy every sweater dress each one has and wear only sweater dresses (and maybe wool pant suits) for the rest of the winter who cares what anyone wears, whateverrrrrrrrrr

loneliness, loneliness, it's such a waste of time

so i'm in finals week at school. i keep trying to remind myself why i am doing this but truthfully can't think of any reasons! oops! because i am the ultimate procrastinator i have been downloading music like crazy and it is truly the only bright spot in my life currently (other than that dim light at the end of this weeks tunnel (i'll be out on wednesday, clutching my sanity with dear life)) below are two songs which i would like to really be on the same level with. let's call them the framework which i am going to build my winter break inside of. nice. and. easy.



whelp, i can't find the other song i wanted to share with you. its linda ronstadt's cover of little feat's 'roll um easy' just praying i can roll easy right into my vacation. bless.

Desperado
Why don't you come to your senses
You've been out riding fences for so long now
Oh you're a hard one
But I know that you've got your reasons
These things that are pleasing you will hurt you somehow

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able
The queen of hearts is always your best bet
Well it seems to me some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the things that you can't get

Desperado
you know you ain't getting younger
Your pain and your hunger are driving you home
And freedom, oh freedom
Well that's just some people talking
Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime
Sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're losing all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away

Desperado
Why don't you come to your senses
Come down from your fences
Open the gate
It may be raining
But there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you
Let somebody love you
Before it's too late

i better be right

oops to the earth that this is my theme song!

sunday night fitness vol. 4

i'm alive when i'm with you

from 1989:



to 1984:



to 1978:



to 1968:



to 1965:



to 1956:


the history of pop music is the best puzzle on earth and i hope i never stop putting it together

close our eyes and feel the light coming down for the night

raining raining raining raining i'm tired but i am not defeated and i will smile my way through all of this you just wait and see you you you (you) i dare you to just stare at me don't blink you might miss the moment i flash my first molars


(i wanted to tell you about thanksgiving, i wanted to tell you about my weekend, i wanted to load you, like icing, into a pastry bag and then extrude you. then you could understand. but maybe it was more like a perfume atomizer. maybe it was more like a fireplace bellows. perhaps it was a squirtgun. a supersoaker. nerf gun! either/or it was a force and then i was out and walking on a wheel again. remember my smile! it sort of makes the whole image okay, no? i still live from day to day. day to day. its the piece of my tree life that i have not forgotten. nothing can defeat us. one day and then another day. of this i mostly solemnly swear)

you better chase all your cares away

attempting to channel this for the next three weeks

there's nothing like finding gold between the rocks hard and cold

music makes everything better always

she puts her hands against the life she had

gosh its either that time of month or something is actually wrong.
i scratched this today while riding to school:


oh to be sweetly reclining in my own mind!
i think this place is already driving me mad. the public eye of scrutiny is one i cannot seem to get out from under, and i just wish i was able to lay about in my own head; slowly choosing which buds and blossoms of my memory i would smell and then clip in my hair.



it can't be a good thing that i close my eyes every night and imagine myself anywhere but where i am. i pretend the clashing grinding banging booming trucks are the loud brisk and hollow train and that when i wake up there will be some kind of dapple of nature filtered sun touching me with gentle hands. its all brash and no matter how many plants i hang in my windows i'm still here with black dust settling on all my prized possessions (my heart, my once bright skin, games, books, elvis statues, etc.)

and now I've opened up my eyes, and found it's all been just a great big fairytale

kaitlin and i just tried to make a zine based on okcupid personals. it sort of worked. then she prematurely expired on the couch. (i hope she is okay). <---is that correct grammar? (stephanie?)
(i will share our results one day. if there can be a http://naomihulahoops.com/, there can be a http://kbzines2krule.com

i wonder what zoey deschanel and ben gibbard are like in real life.
i potentially really like her cotton commercials.
i also really really love that country-singing dancer-with-the-stars: julianne hough. i maybe also love her brother and can't wait to see who wins the finale but thats just me!


hey guys i can't wait to get back to the country. somehow everything seems more sound there. remember that idea for a commune built from friends that everyone has? why doesn't that happen more often? not for nothing, its a really excellent idea. i think now denise may be mentally on-board. (denise?) i also have some feeling i could get luke barber-smith to be a true participant.

i hope you all know, i am a very sentimental person.


a lot of ideas are glitter in the snowglobe of my life. i guess if you become my eighth subscriber you'll get a backstage tour?

many many people take it for a game

um....yes please? phew! whatta babe!

you'll never know what's coming round the bend

here i am!

feeling like i should blog because the genius lightning has been striking me all day but now that i'm here i'm having performance anxiety or something. sorry y'allz!

another secret i will share: last night i wrote in my real paper journal. i hadn't done that since sometime in july after i returned from my minnesota drive. i really had the zest for it last night, putting the pen to the paper was feeling actually so excellent and i think i managed to scrawl a whole three pages (front and back!). mostly it was filling in my journal with my life changes since i last wrote, of which there are many, but i also noted how i feel less creative and less intellectual and less of most things here in the city. on the one hand i have my friends around me now, and better food, and generally more happenings; but on the other i do not have nature. i do not have silence. i do not have rejuvenating sleep. i do not have music SO LOUD and a big oven and a big fridge filled with treats. and trees and snow and leaves and birds and woodchucks lookin in my door!

today i feel so restless and i may have to break out buns of steel volumes 1-3 just to work off some of this crazy energy i have. that would probably be quite the wise child idea. maybe i will play some games of solitaire with actual cards. wowwwww. or maybe i will do laundry? paint my toenails? take a shower? vacuum? dust? sweep? fluff pillows? hang pictures? water plants? watch movies? take a yoga class? play piano? become a trapeze artist??

now that i've done such a crackerjack job of convincing you all of my genius, i think its time to go.



(and thanks to jiwon for snapping that picture of us three girls in the lovely light all searching in our giant bags for something at the very same time)

i don't know much...

but i know this video is SO AWKWARD





SORRY IF I KILLED YOU

i'm in love and its easy to see

okay let me set this up for you:
1) linda ronstadt
2) hank williams cover
3) barefoot
4) mini dress
5) late 60's dancing

do yourself a favor and give this a looksee:

if nothing ever moves, put that needle to the groove

the best thing about today was having two packages for me when i got home.
one of them contained these most perfect shoe specimens:




and a quick snap i took on the bus while i should have been reviewing for the test i most certainly did not ace in anatomy and physiology:



seriously, during the test i would get so distracted by the shoes! when i turned in my test the teacher was like "cute shoes" 'oh thanks lady, aren't they just pefect? i couldn't stop looking at them all through your test which i just failed!'

the second package was more like a giant box filled with special treasures that were all tied up pretty and neat with ribbons that i am going to put in my hair! caroline and i decided to do a thrift swap back in september and she beat me to the punch and sent out my stuff last week (hers will be to her hopefully before the end of the week) i came home today to the big box and it was packed to the brim with goodies! i need to do a proper catalog of the stuff, because its really all so excellent. i am particularly enjoying this little green etienne aigner belt and a lovely pair of minnetonka mocs plus this unexpected seafoam swirl grey sweater vest and a perfect fitting houndstooth pencil skirt. i can only hope she enjoys my stuff half as much as i am planning on enjoying mine.


anyways, i am EXHAUSTED and fed up with internet "dating" and starting a new book tonight because i am bored to tears with the motorcycle diaries and feel awful over it (sorry che!) but i have a lot of faith that lolita will be better and i've never read it so its all going to be a lovely surprise and i'm pretty certain thats what makes life excellent.

if things go as they've been going i will be back here to update everyone very very soon with pictures from my weekend at home and some stories or something else that will maybe make me have more than seven followers.

love!

don't do me no favors, just let me live and learn

in my effort to avoid studying for the exam i have tomorrow in anatomy (SO HARD), i began (don't ask me how, just the magic of the internet i guess) to search through vintage wedding dresses on this amazing site. without further ado, i present to you, bianca's wedding dress choices 2kNever:


are you dying? i am positively DYING p.s. this one won't fit me but most of the others will










this pink number is catching my eye just that much more than the others. can you see me in this? can you even see me with a goddamn boyfriend??



this is especially humorous because i joined a dating site a few days ago and have spent some time picking out the perfect dating site pictures etc etc and NO ONE will return my messages. i have written to nine people! what kind of crazy/sad/ridiculous/incomprehensible world is this?! wise up internet!

we now return to our regularly scheduled program....

sunday night fitness vol. 3

please join us as we join slimmins to sweat to the oldies!
enjoy and stay fit!

the only thing we want to do tonight is go round and round and turn upside down

hello all! happy halloween belations!
i wanted to show you all my pictures yesterday, but i was just too worn out to blog. now i'm at school and i have some time to spare to blogging.

let's get right to it before i lose my motivation.



friday night i went to a party thrown by the dental school. i had convinced myself it would be fun. i shouldn't have done that.



i dressed as a dead bathing beauty. or drowned. whichever. basically i had wanted to be a drowned synchronized swimmer but i look AWFUL bald so i switched it to be a bathing beauty because i just wanted to be dead and wear that swimsuit.

in the interest of time and positivity i will show you the best part of the night, the costumes!














saturday night was actual halloween (duh) and i stayed on my home turf knowing i couldn't tolerate anymore "sexy" costumes. luckily 'sexy' doesn't really fly in wb so i had a really excellent night dressed as a cartoon gothtopus!










































wow! that was awesome! i had so much fun and laughed and danced as octo lady all night. halloween is the best! and next comes thanksgiving and basically that is the best holiday of all time ever ever ever amen. needless to say, i can't wait!
i hope everyone had an excellent halloween. what was the best costume you saw? (say mine)

hopefully sometime this week me and maylis will be able to do installment three of sunday night fitness, and i would also like to go to rosemary's and get a big foamy of budweiser. preferably on the same night.

time for microbiology!

a half-full moon in mexico city, i'll think of you

when i was younger and would walk home from the bus i would compose prose in my head and whisper it in the air. i'm talking about like....ten? nine? eleven? something like this. lately i've been doing it again, though its for my blog and i don't know that my lips are actually moving. at least i really hope they aren't. (they probably are, fml)

these days i can't tell where my dreams end and my real life begins. this sounds so romantic, but, its not. its so confusing and drains all my motivation for anything because i may as well be sleeping since i can't tell the difference anyway.

patiently awaiting halloween and my two costumes which were supposed to be cheap but ended up costing probably just as much as a regular costume.

more pictures from paris: